Stars still shine, as the sun begins to peek over the Eastern Horizon. I am about to start a normal uneventful day without any thoughts of changing anything in my life other than a self-help kick here and there. The coffee had just finished brewing when I hear a voice ask me, "are you ready to move back where the Bass fishing is most awesome"? What? I need some coffee! Again the voice repeats, " are you, as ready as, I am to make a 2450 mile journey back to the south"?
I at this moment am entirely having an outer-body experience. I have waited six long years to hear the question, which just raced through my mind!
This moment happened not even 25 days ago. Since that very time and space I have been in my own extreme sports ride, if you will!
Mentally, I have been traveling faster than the speed of sound! Emotionally, I have been on the World's tallest, fastest, scariest, and gravity defying roller coaster!
I gave my employer a 24 day notice to quit. I called all utilities and set cancellation dates. I went and priced all moving truck companies in the area. I collected boxes (more than enough) for the move. I networked housing, jobs, and churches. I have completed my todo list and now the move is actually more visual than before now!
What am I to leave behind? My new found friends, my family, the stuff in the boxes still from the last move, my job, my home, my panoramic view of the Cascade Mountain Range, my culture, my...my...my...OK now the para and sympathetic nervous systems are taking over everything.
How is it that when we want something so bad that we actaully have second thoughts about it. Do I really want this? Am I sure? I just don't get it!
I have packed the bulk of my belongings, cleaned and now I am getting excited again! YAY!
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